Step 4: New Beginnings
It is finished. Finally. One of the worst chapters of my life is over and I feel… more free. I’m divorced and moving on officially for the first time in three years. The symbolism with that and other areas of my life right now are too close to be coincidence, too. It’s all part of a grand, master plan that I have to trust and follow.
The health journey is still hard but coming along nicely. I’m starting to feel better, mentally and physically. As the weight is coming off my confidence is multiplying. Unstoppable is a good adjective to describe how motivated I am to take care of me first and stick to it.
I’m applying that philosophy to my dreams, too.
I’m officially a digital nomad as of June 1, 2017. I’m scared. So scared I took my niece with me on my first trip to be my buffer for the fear. Not like a 10 year old can help do anything if we get in a sticky situation. Still… having her with me helped pushed me to actually make it happen instead of just keep talking about the dream I was hoping to make real. So I jumped.
Me, my fear, and lack of self confidence hit the road with my niece to travel from Tennessee to California.
And we had a BLAST!
Did the fear go away? No. It was a constant companion, especially in certain situations… like when we got lost after visiting a ghost town in the middle of God’s nowhere, Wyoming. And when my Suburban broke down on the interstate in the middle of nowhere Nevada and it was over 100 degrees.
But I didn’t let that stop me. I pushed through and had some of the best experiences of my life. And saw some of the most beautiful places I’ve ever seen in my whole life. And you wanna know the best part?
The fear left. Around halfway through the three week trip I found myself riding along a mountain pass with my friend near Lake Tahoe… and even though the vast canyon beside me was mere feet away and it felt like I was hurtling on the edge of death… I was white knuckling the ‘oh shit’ handle, laughing nervously, and recording the amazing view and realized fear had no place in my life anymore.
I overcame fears of simply getting out of the house and INTO the world. Fears of bad things happening beyond my control out in the scary unknown. Fears of my unhealthy body not adjusting well to LIVING life instead of sitting through it. And fears that people wouldn’t see me as a person of value, but as a label… a statistic, and one not worthy of knowing.
I talked to strangers. I made friends. And the more I did it, the more comfortable I became with getting out of my shell. The more confident I felt. And surprisingly, the more my faith in other humans was restored despite what life experience had taught me.
I can’t wait to see what the future brings. I encourage you to get out there and live life instead of watching it pass you by. You have so much to give, and there are still many great things to experience.
Embrace the possibilities and join me for the ride.